Ludobites

I went to Ludobites last night, and it was AMAZING! Details and pictures to come soon...

Lost...

Long time no post :( I have so many restaurants/outings to write about and yet I haven't had the chance to upload any pictures from my camera! Boo :( I will try to make it a point this weekend.

Quick updates:

• Going to NYC next month to visit 2 of my favorite people in the world.
• T - Minus 12 days until the LSAT! Ahhh...I am feeling confident though.
  
• Trying to figure out what's next

I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life in the past year or so. I know that in order to move forward there is a chapter I need to close completely, but I don't know if I can. It seems that when I try to close it, it comes back to haunt me. I know what I need to do but I can't bring myself to do it, much less keep it up once it's done. Where is all the resolve I used to have? I feel like I haven't been myself in a very long time and I don't know how to get back to where I was when I was in a good place. Someone give me a sign!

Ok, actual food posts to come soon, I'm off to class and to visit with friends after. :)

Ugh.

The LSAT is in a month and a half and I am stressing hardcore.

To postpone or not to postpone? That is the question...

Lately all these questions have been popping into my head too: Do I even want to go to law school? Do I even want to be a lawyer? How am I ever going to NOT be in debt? What if I bomb the LSAT and I just can't get in anywhere? What if I get in, do great, and then can't pass the bar? What if I pass the bar and start practicing and then discover that I HATE being a lawyer? WHAT THEN! Then I panic, shut my LSAT book and cook instead. Maybe I should scratch saving the children and go to Culinary school instead? Would that be a waste of a perfectly good future lawyer? Ugh...and so the questions in my head continue.

Then again, any time I've ever set foot in a court (even if it's been for not so good reasons) I've remembered why I want to subject myself to the misery that is a career in law. I try to stay focused on how I felt when I interned and how I really felt like I'd found my reason for being, a feeling I've never felt before or since then. It's the one thing I've ever known for sure and now it's slipping away in the face of possibly bombing the LSAT.

Oh well, I will keep studying and hopefully after June 8th my outlook on life won't be nearly as bleak.

P.S. The new Rancid song kinda sucks. Meh, they've been doing the same damn thing for almost 20 years!

I want to make this!

Cupcakes and Peas? Look again!

Waaaaaah!

I suck at updating this. I guess it's because there hasn't been much excitement in my life lately. Here are some updates, bulletin style:

* Work has been crazy insane.
* I need a vacation. I haven't taken a real vacation since summer of 2007. It's time.
* Still having trouble sleeping.
*Stomach problems are kicking in again...I need to de-stress STAT!
* Waaaaaaah!
*Lots of throughts floating around in my head. I'm trying to cut out some stressful factors in my life contributing to my chronic sickness...so far not so good...we shall see.

More fun stuff later, I promise.

Oh, and I heard Rancid was going to be on Kevin and Bean this afternoon! Debuting a new song? Hmmm...do I sense a potential new album/tour in the near future? That'd be amazing. And I promise not to get kicked out this time....

HIGH-Larious

I was having a discussion with a friend about Mel from Flight of the Conchords and how we'd both want to be friends with her, but not too good of friends because she might end up stalking us, but close enough where we could hang out with her a lot and laugh at her sheer awkwardness.

Anywho, this is AWESOME!!!!

Expectations

I was having this conversation the other day with a friend about unfulfilled expectations. She was telling me about her adventures the day before and how she got upset because things didn't go how she'd wanted them to go, but yet she had never even told her friend what she wanted to do in the first place, so how could he have avoided disappointing her when he didn't even know what she wanted to do in the first place?

Now, I am not calling her out at all, instead, when she told me that, I said I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN! I find myself doing that all the time. I'll have these lofty expectations of how I want my plans to go and when (not if, WHEN!) they don't go how I imagined, I become extremely disappointed and I tend to aim my frustrations at the person I'm with, even though it's totally not their fault. Once I realized I was doing this, I've tried to change it, but it's often so hard for me to articulate my needs that I sit and stew about it, then end up hating myself for being upset in the first place. Plus, I am a people pleaser, so a lot of the times, I will take the disappointment so that someone else doesn't feel disappointed....le sigh. Story of my life.

I don't know why I'm even writing this. I guess I am trying to work on my faults and I figure that by putting it all out there, people will keep me in check and in turn, help me be better. Also, I think I've just been feeling really strange lately. I haven't been able to sleep very well in the past couple of weeks...I wake up multiple times in the night with too many things running through my head. I need to learn how to quiet my thoughts.

Other than that, everything is ok. I am seriously so excited about Depeche Mode! :)